1. |
Separated Anxiety
02:17
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Found a good way to pass for fine
Here in the corner of my mind
Simply say yea I’m all right
Maybe underthink instead this time
So I’ve practiced and I’ve tried
To keep the ugly stuff inside
Keep my distance miles wide
And my truths half when I like
So when I said
“I don’t hate myself I guess
I’m just tired and overwhelmed”
At least I’m glad I finally said something I felt
But if there was something i could not say
To unaddress the things we can’t change
These fighting words could use a rephrase
Present the past but in a new way
Turns out i was watering the weeds
Hoping to root the good in me
But growths no good with no good seed
I’m here just long enough to leave
So when I said
“I don’t hate myself I guess
I’m just tired and overwhelmed”
At least I’m glad I finally said something I felt
Cause what I meant
It’s not that leaving doesn’t hurt
But you’re the subject of that verb
The better that things go the more im gone
Think that can stay unheard
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2. |
Guest Room
03:18
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I don’t even have a guest room yet
How can I expect to die like that
With space that’s shared and rent that’s due
When it’s still my turn to vacuum
I lived past my first line in the dirt
Never thought my twenties could come first
I’ve talked too many friends down over the phone
Not to meet up at our next milestone
If I’m gonna be
Somebody
Deliberately alive
I want to do it right
I pay somebody on the internet
To talk through things I don’t know how to fix
it’s an exercise in buoyancy
Not insured for the help I need
I give myself fat lips
Chewin out my cheeks when I’m anxious
So I’ve told a few friends who say, “be gentle, kid”
But that only works some of the time
How do I do it right
How can I do it right
I’m not sure which one I fear worst
(Going young or getting old)
Guess I’ll take whatever comes first
(Going young or getting old)
It’s not like I had a say in being born
(Going young or getting old)
At least I’m not convinced I deserve either one anymore
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3. |
Play Cool
02:58
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I think this is broken
And it won’t end till someone says something
That they actually mean
Said i’m trying to be three halves of a good friend
Crying outside the venue
Aptly named where I fell to
At the bottom once again
Oh I wish I didn’t say that
I wanna stay happy out of context
But I got scared and you were so mad
Let’s skip to the end and work our way back
From a distance we were still friends
But too close to see what was coming
So I probably should mention
My intention at the time was mostly to see
How drunk I could get in a half hour set
That’s all music meant to me.
Thought it cool for so long I
Didn’t realize I’m not fine
With playing make believe
Oh I wish I didn’t say that
I wanna stay happy out of context
But I got scared and you were so mad
Let’s skip to the end and work our way back
From a distance we were still friends
But too close to see what was coming
So now we’re going through the motions
Spent half the year on borrowed time
I think maybe I was hoping
We could admit we won’t be fine
Oh I wish I didn’t say that
I’m trying my best not to make you mad
Sometimes your best is bad in context
I don’t think I want it all to go back
From a distance we were still friends
I couldn’t have seen what was coming
You pushed me off of the cliff and said I’m jumping
Now you’re out there hating me like its nothing
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4. |
Bizarre Affection
04:04
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I got your ornament
Thanks again I guess
I didn’t forget
Just wasn’t sure what to say
I miss you too and all
It’s nothing personal
Can’t keep traditions
From a distance anymore
I still can’t forget about that night in Connecticut
When I laid on the ground and begged for an answer
I think I get it now
God damn, I was panicked/off base
There couldn’t be anyone else until there was you
Remember when we walked
Back home last Halloween
Thought we were fighting
Turns out we were just upset
Not with each other but
Mad at the circumstance
not enough weekend to get back what we gave away
I’ve tried to forget about that night on the lower east
When I cried at the bar while you gave me your answer
I think I get it now
God damn, I was selfish
There can’t be anyone else until there’s no you
Try to find the common threads
Pull them out tie off the ends
Patch the holes as best I can
A little less of who I’ve been
But I won’t forget about that night in Sennott Park
When you said you’re in love with me and that’s why it’s over
I see it clearly now
God damn, I’m avoidant (some things never change)
I wish I’d been anyone else when I was with you
I can remember now how bizarre affection felt
When I couldn’t normalize forgiving myself
The next time around (if I get one)
God damn, I’ll do better (late than never)
I can’t be anyone else, so why pretend to
Look back on the person I was as if anythings improved
Asking for help getting out when i need to get through
Maybe once nobody’s left that’ll solve the issue
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5. |
Believe
03:22
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Future Teens Boston, Massachusetts
future teens is amy, daniel, maya and colby. they are a bummer pop band from boston.
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