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Happy New Year
02:38
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Happy New Year
You get the same old me
I don’t have the resolution to change a thing
January
Won’t be different than the last
Except of course I’m torn between two homes
I’m more sick than ever of talking on the phone
My dog won’t live through this winter
No one’s ever stayed that long
Come on over
Want you to see my room
I’ll have it this whole weekend
About as long as I’ll have you
I can’t remember
Feeling not so far away
I’ve been carrying more baggage each time I board the plane
I was never good at packing all my bags are overweight
And this flight keeps getting longer but the distance stays the same
And I’m just calling to tell you that I am not okay
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2. |
Born To Stay
03:05
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Here’s to my absent friends
When will you be back again?
Is it sad? I think somewhat
To stay in the town where you grew up
Though technically I’m a mile away
I’m close enough to see the face
Of every girl from my high school class
Home from New York on dating apps
Still I’m glad I stayed
Close enough to see my Mom and Dad watch the baseball game
But nothing changed
I guess that when you stay you also stay the same
I’ve been so busy screaming into the void
Never noticed I was making a choice
To be just one more lonely sad boy
Missing the point
So cue the lights, then fade to black
Maybe this time no laugh track
Cause I’m done there, and I’ve been that
I should be happy where I’m at
But all I want
Is someone who will wait around while I am gone
Is it wrong?
To have a fear of missing out on moving on
I’ve been so busy screaming into the void
When really I was making a choice
To be just one more lonely sad boy
Missing the point
Wish it was easier done than it’s said
But honestly don’t know what it is I expect
Cause I never heard the void once scream back
I guess that silence meant I should get over it
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3. |
Emotional Bachelor
03:14
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I remember you lying there
Right through your teeth
Always pretended I didn't care
Which was too easy
Caught in the fading light
of the TV flickering
Right then I made a decision
One which I would not keep
To only be with somebody else
For whom I feel something
Just give me the benefit of my doubts
don’t hold them against me
Heavy as they are
they still feel lighter than honesty
Last week on commonwealth
I saw you walking by
But it was someone else
I still waved and smiled
And so I think of a way
To get back in touch
But it’s 3am
I just asked if you want to get lunch
I’m tired of waking up in debt
To the night before
Just wondering how broke I can feel
till I’m emotionally poor
Like when you did not get an invite
to a party you would’ve skipped
I saw you with your boyfriend
the night after we kissed
And then in Harvard Square
I saw you walking by
But I was unprepared
And barely recognized
I couldn’t help but stare
Something did not feel right
Realized we’d never seen
Each other in daylight
So then you thought of a way
To get back in touch
Now it’s 3am
And I’m half past drunk
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4. |
Frequent Crier
03:08
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You made my mom a scarf
Just like the one you made for me
It’s just like you to keep us warm
Even after I up and leave
I can’t remember when I last slept in my own bed
And I’m paying up for it in way more ways than rent
Catch me
Crying in the shower
How’s your day been?
Crying in a traffic jam
How was your drive?
Crying in the break room hoping no one else comes in
I bet your friends are thrilled
They don’t have to hear you go on
About another girl who’s great
but Boston’s still too damn far away
I know mine are over it
They’ve been rolling their eyes since
We nearly kissed in Ilana’s backyard
So I mailed you a book and a birthday card
Now I’m
Crying in the shower
How’s your day been?
Crying in a traffic jam
How was your drive?
Crying in the break room hoping no one else comes in
Crying into my fridge
Are you eating?
Crying at my own birthday
Are you happier yet?
Crying over every picture of your cat you send
Crying into my plate
At a Mexican place in Maine
Cause you won’t let me pay you back
For a vacation I didn’t take
And it’s been two years to the day
Sick of
Crying in the shower
Crying in a traffic jam
Crying in the bathroom when you asked me how’ve I’ve been
Crying into my fridge
Crying cause I’m leaving again
Crying when you told me I would still be your best friend
And I can’t do this again
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5. |
So What
03:22
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Live in a house full of all my stuff
I’m grown up grown up grown up
But I can’t be sure of
When the last time was I loved someone
So what so what so what it feels hard enough
To come home and make myself sleep
Eat three square meals, wash my face, brush my teeth
And find a soulmate in which I don’t believe
If that means a lot well I don’t think it means it means it to me
Have no time to let in someone new
That’s not true not true not true
Should find a better excuse
For why I’m scared of what I can’t un-lose
I’ll make room make room make room so I can tell you
The thoughts that I’ve been holding in
We’ll both pretend you’re not sleeping with him
I understand now that the means always end
So let’s find out if we’re mutually friends
I’m sorry
If you’re sorry
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6. |
Alone At A Party
03:59
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I’m filling in my calendar
Every hour with stuff to do
If I can’t stop to think of it
I won’t have time for missing you
I haven’t called up my family
I’m avoiding my oldest friends
Maybe I’ll just make some new ones
So I don’t have to pretend i’m happy alone at the party again
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do
I can’t hate you
And trust me, I’ve tried to
How long is this supposed to take?
Cause I love you and I need that to change
Maybe it was destructive
To go catch a crush
I built this up into something
That it never was
But if my memory serves me
Like my self worth rarely does
This started just like the ending
Trying to play it cool enough and leaving with an awkward hug
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do
I can’t hate you
And trust me, I’ve tried to
How long is this supposed to take?
Cause I love you and I need that to change
We joked that this would be easier
For whoever cared less
I guess that makes me the loser
But I’m trying my best
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do
I can’t hate you
And trust me, I’ve tried to
How long is this supposed to take?
Cause I love you I don’t want that to change
I need it to change
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7. |
Passed Tense
03:55
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Go back
To the way it was before I got attached
To how it felt assuming love should not go well
And when things go right it’s almost hard to tell
So used to being by myself
Then suddenly that all came undone
Maybe you can have what you want
But can you have it all at once?
Hang on
Could I just look for love some place that isn’t wrong?
And maybe find out what she meant in the parking lot
When she said you know it actually doesn’t need to be this hard
I think I finally get that part
So how can I convince the thought away
That if something good comes easy
It must be too good to stay
But then you were in my dream last night
We didn’t talk but it was nice
And I know we don’t speak in real life
But this was different you seemed fine
(I still blame you)
Instead of having that same argument
Or wondering where all six years went
You let this go, I let you win
Guess I still know you like I did back then
Now it’s just passed tense
Maybe let’s not stay friends
And I don’t blame you
But I’ll always know us like we were back then but now it’s just past tense
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8. |
Swiped Out
03:33
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I swiped myself to sleep last night
I wanna set my iPhone on fire
Cause Colin or Connor or David or Alex
Whatever his name is
Just asked me to breakfast
So I’ll make excuses for my weekend
I cried myself to sleep last night
I want to throw myself in the Charles
Cause Carolyn’s thoughtful
She asked how my day went
I can’t bring myself to tell her it was fine
Cause her hair’s tucked behind her ears like yours
If i met her I’d just fall apart for sure
I don’t have time for this
I don’t have time
I dropped another shift tonight
I might have to quit my job
Someone cute works there
It makes me feel anxious
What if they think I am funny too?
I’m not prepared for someone new
I wonder when it won’t feel too soon
Have you had time for this?
Now you don’t have mine
Have you made room for this?
My rooms still a mess
I can’t fall asleep most nights
I loved your voice when you’re tired
The way we’d high five every time we remembered
That all of our last firsts would happen together
The photo of us still pressed inside my wallet
The pile of your stuff growing tall inside my closet
If I ever knew what went wrong, I think that I forgot it
I told you things are better now, I wasn’t being honest
Half of the time we wished
We had more time for this
We were half right
Tried for so long to live
In one room and two places
But kept our distance
So why do I look for you
In town and in people too
Sometimes I miss
Someone to be lonely with
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9. |
Heavy Petting
02:50
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I keep wondering how you spend your days
Do you even notice that I’m away
I know I’m asking from a selfish place
You just seem distant, and that’s okay
We’ve been staying in separate rooms
But it still makes my day to come home to you
I wouldn’t ask for things you don’t want too
I know you’re waiting there for me
But I can’t get too comfy
When I met you I knew that I was
signing up to get hurt in the long run
My arm’s asleep, but I won’t move
Cause so are you
I could take back all my stuff
But you love that old shirt of mine so much
And I still find your hair on everything I touch
I hope you’re waiting there for me
but I can’t get too comfy
When I met you I knew that I was
Signing up to get hurt in the long run
My arm’s asleep but I won’t move
You won’t be waiting there for me
And I got way too comfy
When I met you I knew that I was
Signing up to get hurt in the long run
My arm’s asleep, and I won’t move
Two beers deep wanna call you
I should just leave, I don’t want to
What else is new?
Getting used to my company
Was never gonna amount to loving me
Not even temporarily
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10. |
Something Nice
03:49
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Go on get out of bed now
Turn the lights back on
You took a nap with the sun out
And waking up feels wrong
Look at your phone for a little bit
But the feeling isn’t gone
That you could live your whole life like this
Comfortably alone
Bored inside your home
You can’t tell if you’re hungry
Or should you never eat again?
Open the fridge for a third time
Still nothing you have interest in
Can we skip to the moment when
You start to feel more human
You’re stuck inside your own skin
Behind your own eyes spinning
Not sure who you think you’ve been kidding
You’re just vicariously living
Cause lately you feel like your life’s too long
Not to find someone else to waste it on
And lately it feels like if life’s so long
At least I found something nice to waste it on
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Future Teens Boston, Massachusetts
future teens is amy, daniel, maya and colby. they are a bummer pop band from boston.
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